Coming To Terms With Being Yourself

Well after my (confident) but tentative diagnosis of Bipolar II Disorder (Is that out of order, racist or sumfink?) I have to wait now for an official diagnosis, which could happen in 13 weeks (the blink of an fucking eye for someone experiencing hypomania and extreme anxiety about their health and identity) but of course it has to go through a Gateway Worker first....

....What is a Gateway worker I hear you cry, well a voice in my head did, well a Gateway worker is not a doctor but they take your GP's referal letter and then as a not-doctor decide if you need to receive any NHS Mental Health resources. This may sound weird and it it is, not many other departments have it, people with suspected cancer don't have to put up with it for example.

No, Mental people don't vote, pay taxes or matter - especially once poor diagnosis, the wrong treatment and delayed treatment means they go all "code red" and beat someone to death in a doctor's surgery because they thought they were a daemon trying to steal their soul.

So eventually they won't matter or they'll kill themselves so fuck 'em. Lets not waste money on them as it's not like anyone is going to make much of a fuss about it if we don't.

Basically the deal with mental health care in the UK is this "You can't get much save for a few pills unless you are a clear danger to yourself or others, mainly others" as a child psychologist once said to me.

Sorry for the long angry post, but hey, I'm a hypomaniac and I'm a person and I have every damn right to be annoyed.

I'm a fucking motivated seller - help me!